To have and to hold are, to be sure, quite different from
to hope and to dream, which are also, to be sure, away —
maybe somewhere with you but away nonetheless,
which is where I sense you, on your own.
I would not bind you to me (if even I could),
nor force anything ahead nor outside its time,
and yet this little pigeon longs for you and home
in one and the same breath.
(Some blessing. Some curse. Who can say?)
Who am I to take where you are away from you?
It’s not wrong, it’s just not here.
In the beginning was away,
and away was with God
and away was God —
I long for a place to come home to,
a mat to stamp my dream-worn feet upon:
“This is where I belong.”
A hook for my coat.
A body to roll over into.
“Pinch me, I am here,” I might say,
or astounded: “It’s you, really you!”
to which you might reply all bleary-eyed, all flesh and blood:
“Yes, now sleep, my little homing pigeon.”